#686

the creak of the stairs

in the middle of the night

an unwelcome thought

#685

the creak of the stairs

in the middle of the night

an unwelcome sound

#684

the creak of the stairs

in the middle of the night

a new rabbit hole

#683

the creak of the stairs

in the middle of the night

the start of it all

#682

the creak of the stairs

in the middle of the night

an invitation

#18

the skull in the lawn

vomiting worms so it seemed

i had discovered

comedy and tragedy

reality and fiction

#17 (Oppenheimer 11)

now can i silence

these thoughts?  

                        now can i calm this

scared child within?

can writing be therapy,

a way out of my own head?

#678 (Oppenheimer 7)

remembering the 

horror trying to focus

on something else there

#680 (Oppenheimer 9)

thoughts that lay dormant

in an equilibrium

now set off balance

#681 (Oppenheimer 10)

imagine all things

and then imagine no things 

destroyer of earth

#679 (Oppenheimer 8)

the fear amplified

by caffeine spreading quickly /

a deepening pit

#677 (Oppenheimer 6)

the horror the hor-

ror the horror the horror

the horror writ large

#676 (Oppenheimer 5)

my childhood fears

of annihilation are

reignited now

#675 (Oppenheimer 4)

that powerlessness

that they had over the drop

means we sit and wait

#674 (Oppenheimer 3)

the nuclear dread

of my childhood returns

emptying my chest

#673 (Oppenheimer 2)

the nuclear dread

returns and I live my life

with fear-hollowed eyes

#672 (Oppenheimer 1)

and still we cross our

fingers and hope nothing comes

through the sky for us

#16

standing by my son

using the urinal as

if i always do;

hoping i don’t pass on the

fear that i found at his age

#671

all that flows from me

all that’s upon me bestowed

myrninerest

#670

the boy hit the floor

hard, all smiles and laughter

but what was inside?

#669

in the sports hall I

remember brutality

taking over me