#1741 (#032) and #46

all my hidden thoughts,

intentions, dressed up fancy

arrière-pensée

*

if I make it french

will it be fancy instead?

“arrière-pensée!”

hmm, it sounds more like ballet

than scheming and treachery

#45

a quiet morning

trying silent recycling.

but it's just so hard -

the paper is no problem,

but my god, the tins! the tins!

#44

the sound of the stream

amplified by its steep banks -

it hardly seems real.

or is this the modern way -

disbelieve reality.

#43

show the world what you

see, expose what should be seen

by those who would pay

and to those who can change it

and keep it changed forever

#42

i just went there once

Kennedy’s for fish and chips

shall I tonight then?

and rid me of that mem’ry

too for it was a shit day

#41

potatoes roasting

the fat bubbling, crisping,

making them crunchy

(and the smell as they get close

and the taste as they go in)

#40

crescent moon and star

hang high above the houses

extra bright tonight

(actually it was Venus)

(should have used an app to check)

#39

letting the breeze in

through thin clothes to blow coldly

over your hot skin’s

like inviting a lover

to relieve the ache inside

#38

the dandelion:

time piece and love predictor?

all in just one plant?

no, the latter is daisies -

i can’t just ignore that now.

#37

thunder born in spring

is a fresh newborn thunder -

it makes us smile.

(bizarre nonsense written to

fill the syllable count up).

#36

looking down the list

i see the phrase heat shimmer

and i remember

i saw one at the weekend

but where and when i’m not sure

#35

this is not one thing

or the other, ‘snot static,

spring melancholy.

this is weather dependant,

this is very changeable.

#904, #34, #905, #906, #907, #908, #909, #910, #911 and #912 (feelings at a conference)

#904

why'm i so awkward

and what is this barrier

between me and them?

#34

how does it happen?

how can people just talk, talk

when they've never met?

why have i a barrier

up against these normal things?

#905

time alone is gold

but time alone makes me meek

when I should be bold 

#906

stand back, people watch

find a certain comfort in

all my discomfort

#907

in the quiet space

i can just sit and be me

forget my worry

#908

(is it bad or not 

that i don't want to talk or 

even interact?)

#909

and then you do it.

you talk to a stranger and

you thaw a little.

#910

the relief when the

automatic lights are off

in the men's toilets

#911

too tired for the

last session of the two days.

i’ll try art instead…

#912

days later and i’m

reflecting on what that was,

planning the next one.

#33

like the swimming pool

Coventry Station is still

stuck in the sixties

delightfully so and still

the same after twenty years

#32

when the air is cold,

your face feels like a fridge and

your fingers ice poles:

do not despair and shed tears,

find the one who’ll give you warmth.

#31

the annual quest

of searching for plum blossoms

in the calm before

the cherry storms of people

come to flood our peaceful groves

#30 (little grebe talks)

i can’t walk too well

but i can sink under and

i can fly as well -

underwater you wouldn’t

believe my fluid displays

#29

futon in winter

more quilts above than below 

my night-time cocoon

waking each morning anew

fresh for at least one hour

#28

there is more that is 

not us than there is that is 

us : we must take care

of each other and the world

around us : love all neighbours

#27

have you felt the rush,

the tea-coffee-caffeine rush?

the daily races

and the fight against drinking

too much: take corners slowly